Unleashing the kink….
Daddy read my blog yesterday, and came home with the face of “Well I know what you want” kind of face. He looked as though someone just handed him the map to the treasure box. I have been slowly throwing him a little bone here and there, mostly to get him used to being in our new roles, and to introduce him to the fantasies I have in my head.
Several days ago I threw out my back, so My protective lion helped me into the car, and took me to a client’s house. We started to talk about other people’s blogs, talking about TTWD, and then somehow, the discussion went to his interest in choking someone during sex. I kind of sat back in my seat, didn’t want to know more, changed the subject.
I have no desire to be choked. I know there is such a thing, I am sure lots of people do it. My luck though, his ADD would kick in while hes distracted, I would turn blue, die, and the coroner would find my lifeless body with cum all over me, and my husband sobbing in the corner. My parents would have to be notified of the cause of my death….I’m sure Daddy would go to jail, and my daughter would move in with her useless father. I would be in the newspaper. I hate photos of me alive, I am sure ones of me dead and naked with dried cum in my thighs would be just as attractive.
Unleashing the kink can be dangerous. Everyone has a deep, dark side to themselves, that we don’t reveal to others. Some people start to live part of their fantasies, and keep the other ones locked deep in their minds. I am asking him to live my fantasy of being in the Daddy/Submissive lifestyle….and I am sure he has fantasies too. Hopefully they don’t all include choking. In his younger years he was turned on with someone naked but wearing tennis shoes. With him in control, makes me raise my brow to whats coming.
Once you go there, you can’t take it back. If your partner is stimulated by the new kink, they will soon think of it as old, and wait for something new that you want to try. If you push way beyond your comfort zone, do you then regret it?
I am putting him in charge of my body, my life, our relationship in the bedroom. If the kink is fully released, I fear how far that will go. I am turned on by many things, and equally turned off by many things as well.
Daddy isn’t freaky. He doesn’t watch porn, he didn’t come to my house with whips, chains, collars, etc. He was satisfied with a few positions, when we began to have sex. It was me who brought this lifestyle to him…allowing him to read some stories I write, and now, blogs.
I would hope he would know me enough to walk gently in this new world of ours. So that we don’t get out of hand. That we don’t lose the love, the respect, we have for each other.
I don’t want it to go so far it is all we are attracted to. It would be fake, forced, not gentle, loving, spontaneous and a little fun.